Monday, 7 September 2009

fatties have a difficult time hiding.

Mum - "You know what Skinny Love? I don't like you. You're always quiet, brooding, you seem to not care about school, you won't ever tell me what's wrong..."

Me - "I don't care what you think about me. I'm not liked by alot of people."



I went skydiving today. It was a beautiful experience during which -for the 30 minutes it lasted- my mind was NOT thinking of food.

My instructor was thinner than I am.



141.
Back up to the 140s. Bulimia has been a guest in my house for the past three days.
Why do those three digits hold such terrible power and control over me?

I will reply to you. Soon.

6 comments:

See said...

ah, sorry about you and your mum,
I'd like to go skydiving, it sounds amazing! just a way to escape everything.
I know you can get back into the 130's, don't worry!
stay strong.

Isabella said...

Oh SWEETUMS (it feels slightly strange saying this to an older someone)! I CANNOT believe she SAID that! What a BETRAYAL!

I mean, Mother's are supposed to lie, and lie, and LIE.. until they suffocate on how much breath they DIDN'T get, while they were lying.

But, you know what? She didn't mean it. And, 141 is such a big thing to you, because you've hyped it up. When I look at my scale, and I see a number which I obviously HATE, then I flinch a little bit. Hit the wall a little bit, and then starve.

ILOVEYOUNOMATTERWHAT (GOD I WISH COMMENT BOXES HAD ITALICS, BECAUSE THAT WHOLE LAST SENTENCE WOULD BE IN THEM)

R Harlow B said...

that was a really harsh thing that your mom said. It sounds like she is frustrated because she doesn't understand you/understand what's going on with you.

piana said...

Just ask yourself two or three numbers next time on the scale. I should do that. I will do that.

throughraindrops said...

pretty sure i would like you if i were to know you in real life if only for our agreed love of skins
lol
xx

Bluegreen said...

hi!
I started following your blog-
Wish you the best of luck!! I know you can make your goal!
ps. I love your playlist :)