I just want to sleeeeeeeeeeep

Hey guys, sorry I haven't posted in a few days - my life is quite hectic at the moment! I've been trying to sort out uni stuff, prepare everything for high school graduation, confirm my summer job, blah blah blah.

I'm at 134!!! It's only about a little lost, but I believe I'm back in the game.

I will admit that I'm becoming bored with the whole waking-up-at-4:45 a.m.-breakfast routine. It's not the food I'm becoming bored with, it's just waking up that early I suppose. I have been finding myself unable to even finish the 1/2 cup of cereal...It's like I don't even want to swallow.
So I alternate the cereal between honey nut cheerios and honey bunches of oats (tasty honey!) and each day I change my fruit from oranges to bananas to apples to strawberries.

Then I go throughout the day water/food-less until about 8:30 p.m., then I have 1 cup of applesauce and sometimes I'll eat another banana.

Then right before bed (around 11:30 p.m.) I exercise until midnight.

Let me tell you, I can hardly lift my head - I'm so exhausted, sleepy, and lethargic! My head pounds, my hands shake, and of course every second of every day I dream of food...
But I'm losing weight. I'm content.

And it's quite nice being at home alone! I've written ana quotes on paper (such as "eat to live. don't live to eat" and "FAT") and taped them on the fridge and pantry. I also placed the scale in front of them (fridge and pantry are right next to each other). And it's actually working :D
Although, since I like to keep my fruit chilled, I've put everything I'm allowed to eat (fruit, applesauce, and nothing else) at an eye-level shelf in the fridge. That way when I open the door the first thing I see will be the foods I'm allowed and I can concentrate on them.

I also put thinspo on my mobile phone.

And actually, I'm thinking about not fasting the Muslim way. Mostly because I don't like losing sleep just for eating...
So instead -
I'll wake up, eat one fruit, go to school (and SIP water during school; I don't like feeling dehydrated) get home.
On days that I have to work, I'll just eat salad at work (which for me usually consists of one baby carrot, two slices of cucumber/tomato, two pieces of the crunchy lettuce, a tablespoon of black olives, and if I'm being bad I'll put croutons or a cut up breaded chicken strip).
Then on days when I don't have to work, I'll just eat some fruit or veggies.

I may even start taking baby carrots for lunch at school. Maybe that will keep me from bingeing the minute I get home.

I'll reply to your comments (I feel a bit rude for putting my blogging duties off!) soon; right now Yanni is on the telly and I HAVE to watch! (Not sure if I've told you guys about my obsession with Yanni, but I will if I haven't). Anyway, I'm going to a Yanni concert next month, and I get to meet him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to be THIN when I meet him.

Tomorrow my neighbor wants to take me out for breakfast. I dread this, but I accepted, just to be polite. I don't want to dwell on what will happen regarding food at the restaurant...so I'll give details tomorrow.


Alright, goodnight ladies!

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